Beginning October with gratitude #MondayMusings
How was your September?
MIne was full of struggles with my mental health. What began at the end of July with perpetual exhaustion got converted into a constant feeling of being lost and disconnect with the world and also with myself throughout the month of August. Contrary to my efforts of getting back on track, September saw me amidst the throes of depression whereby I spent my days crying or lying in bed or both. It could have got worst if I didn’t have my virtual friends to confide in. Today, with the beginning of the new month of October, I can see I have loads to feel grateful about.
 I am grateful for my virtual friends, from the blogosphere, who checked upon me from time to time during the past 2 months. They heard my blabbering. They gave advice and yet did not hover over me.
 I am grateful to everyone who has spoken about mental health in the past, thus making it easier for me to accept it and seek help. I got registered with NHS Professional Therapy Services in the first week of September. The NHS queues are long resulting in a one-month waiting time.
 I am grateful for my parents, my brother, and sister-in-law who are my unrelenting pillar of support.
 I am grateful for my in-laws who are non-demanding and expect nothing from me in this phase of life making it somewhat easier for me to lead my life the way I want to.
 I am grateful for the husband’s presence. He has been patient with me, non-complaining and understanding of my need to have solitude and my unwillingness to socialize around with his colleague’s families. Mindless socializing has eaten me up.
 I am grateful for Dhruv being happy in his school. All his anxieties (and questions and concerns like why isn’t his foot getting any whiter?) have vanished after he got a friend, Mr. A, a new admission in his class, with the school re-opening after summer vacation. September was a good month for him with Mr. A around however this friendship is destined to be short-lived as Mr.A’s family is all set to return to India this month. This news saddened our heart when we got it this morning.
 I am grateful Dhruv is still interested in books and stories, no matter if I am the one reading aloud to him with lots of dramatic expressions to capture his attention. I wonder how long I have to keep reading aloud to him. The journey which began with a few pages of picture books has now come to reading aloud 20 chapters. I have to keep cajoling him to read on his own by setting aside fixed time everyday.
 I am grateful for the small little things which make my life comfortable in everyday life – the warm coat, hot water running in the taps, living in a safe and secure area, internet connection, phone, food on my plate, tea to my taste and much more.
I hope I am able to find myself in October and manage to stay around with my blog updates.
I wish all my readers a Happy October too.