I had not been writing, blogging or even reading blogs for the past 15 days. My emotions had taken me for a nose dive pulling me into the habit of procrastination. Often I found myself pondering upon the hurt people close to me meted out to me in the bygone years, thus causing myself more hurt. Any effort of creating positive thoughts did not result in favourable effect. I had been going through more instances of breathlessness such that even doing the household chores was posing a problem.
On Saturday, I traveled to Delhi to visit my parents. I am in Delhi with Dhruv for the Puja holidays. Just being with parents eases out a lot of discomfort because with them you are not required to show off your strengths and can let out your vulnerability. Today, I visited the doctor for breathlessness. Tomorrow I have to undergo a complete body health check-up and I am sure there will be issues. But, today I am feeling slightly positive that I will find an aim, once the tests’ reports come, to focus my energies, both physical and mental, on improving my health. I am telling myself that I am going to feel better.